Telling Them

Right now I am having troubles with which way my carrer is going. I know that I want to stay here in Mekoryuk and live here. Except the challenging part is jobs. There arn't many jobs here in Mekoryuk. Another hard part is to tell my parents I want to stay here in Mekoryuk and live here.
I can't see myself living in Anchorage or Bethel, plus I don't want to live in those places.
I had plans to become a nurse, but then I wouldn't want to work at a place I don't want to live in. So my mind has changed...
I have told my parents and my teacher and my principal what I wanted to become and they seemed so proud of my decision. The hard part for me of telling them. I guess I'm afraid of seeing their reaction or I don't know. Its just all a process of a little bit of everything. And I don't know exactly what I mean by that...
I have to tell my parents soon. But I'm being a wimp about it.... I guess I'm scared to tell them because they had shown a lot of impressing of happiness or like 'thats a great goal for you in life' expression in their faces when I had told them what I wanted to become.  But I'm losing time to tell them. With all the applications I would be doing and everything. Just its so stessing and a bit confusing.
A lot is on my mind about it. I think about it every day in school at night. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to tell them last minute.... I just can't tell them now, but I really want to tell them. But I guess my feelings on how they would come about is what is stopping me.....